Is love this hurtful...??
Its so hurtful that it feels your'e being stabbed by a knife...
I dunno..uncertain...perphaps im hoping to much from things that happens..
If only could my heart has a mouth to voice how it's feelings...
Im not blaming no one...
There's no point saying sorie when things have already happen and cant be undone...
Yes the truth might be hurtful..but it's the reality of life where its either u swollow it down your throat or simply choose not to borther...
As for me..i choose to borther simply because i care anything relating to me...yes me...
Im not sure for you...
I did try and understand and adapt yourlife style..
Its not easy as it seems like it...
I know along the way..there was lies made...promises broken...
But perhaps is this the way God is punishing me for those lies and promises broken...
I can only pray..pray..and pray...
I had enough of me making the first move...
Making the initiative...
All those...
Despite this turbulence mayhem of feelings in me...
I WANNA YOU 2 KNOW SOMETHING...
I LOVE YOU DEARLY...
IM SERIOUS ABT YOU AND US IF THERE'S EVEN US IN THE FIRST PLACE...
ANDD MOST IMPORTANLY...I'VE ONLY YOU...
outs...need some fresh air...
CHEERLEADERS WANTED...!!
Commited. Out-going. Fun-loving .Daring. Eagerness to learn.
Females & Males age between 12-25
Under Tampiness Changkat CC 13, Tampiness St11
Benefits:
Widen Social Circle
Experience In Competition & Performances
**SEXIER BODIES
Farewell 2009
HEEEELLLLLOOOO 2010
Thanks to those who made the start of my 2010 a blasting one...
MUSIC..DANCE..just can't be separated from this two
I hope in the year 2010 would be way better as compared to what i had in 2009...
MY RESOLUTION/s for 2010:
To look good at my prime(both physically & mentally & spiritually)
To be more neat & well-organised person
To be PUNCTUAL for school or any to other meet-ups or events
To bo successful academically as well as for my silat
LASTLY..
To love & cherish the ones i have and spending more time with them
Happy New Year again to ALL....!!!!!!!1
2009..the year where i OFFICIALLY turned 18..
the age where every teenagers are looking forward for..
where everything is LEGAL...
CLUBBING...SMOKING.SHEESHA...HAVING LICENSE..and even SSEEXXXX....
well..turning 18 is something one will have 2 go through once in their life time..
but as for me....turning and being 18 is a life-learning year which thought me to be a mature individual...
It was indeed a rollercoaster ride for me..
Broke off after 2 years of relationship with ex...
Going single and join through countless dates...yet have found any replacment..
People took advantage of my kindness...Feeling got manipulated and hurt countle times..
HATE IT seriously...
2009...the year where my resolution was not achived...
for example only...
Try to out a smile on my face despite im down...
To loose more weight but it just refuses to do so and yet it keeps on increasing...*depressed
2009...the year where my idol passed away...
the Late Michael Jackson...
despite it has been months passed since his departure...
his presence is still strong in me as if his still alive...
but yet again...2009 was the year i widen my circle of friends..
and im truely blessed to have friends like them...
Jannah...Wajihah...and even getting 2 cousins close to each other despite we have not been knowing and talking to one another..
AND FOR 2010 which is coming SOON..
i hope that it will bring out the best in me..
Both academically as well for silat...
I just wanna do well in my studies...
Making it into Director's List seems impossible..
True enough..but to think logically and with sense right..
If i don't make it to the Director's Lists..at least my GPA would be more the 3.4 aint i right..??
As for my silat..
I just wanna be there..in that gelangang.. aka arena ...
Fighting and representing NYP Silat Team..
Wanna prove others and ESPECIALLY MYSELF...
that being lembot or whatever shitty circumstances are not excuses for u to get what u STRONGLY DESIRE...
IM THIRSTY FOR VICTORY...thats for sure..
AND AS FOR NOW...seat back and relak wait until the time strike 12mm
where we INVITE AND OPEN OUT DOOS TO 2010...
Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year
EVERYONE
and and and
HAPPY 74th Birthday
to my beloved nenek
I dont know why am i feeling so restless tonight..
Keep thinking about you...
No return of SMS from you..neither a call to wish me good night..
I know your sick and i just wanna know how is your state currently..
Im feeling lonely tonight..
I really miss you CHIPMUNK..
Finally time permits me to meet and hang out with Hairil & Sabariah...
Headed to Bugis..had dinner @ Tong Seng..
I had Minced Chicked Fishball Soup..
Hairil with his Fish Soup Noodle...
Sab with her Lor Mee...
then planned of going bowling but someone was strongly against the idea..
got ourself some chewy juniors before heading for sheesha..
had a tough time deciding where to sheesha..
had mixed flavour of mint and vanilla flavour..and it turns out to be a nice combo together...
had 2 rounds of nice hot mint tea..which comprehens well with the nice cooling whether...
chit-chat..cam-whored...gossip..giggled..laughed...
unill we got ourself all wet as we were caught in a heavy rain while trying to get ourself back home..
drop at Eunos mrt...they took 60..i walked home...
and until this very point of time..I MISSING MY CHIPMUNK..AND i heart you...
Comon Test are like FINALLY OVER...
If were to ask how did i far in all 4 papers...
All was managable with an exception of WDD...SCREW YOU...!!
but to pass..INSYALLAH..im able to do so..
BUT TO DO WELL...hmmpphhh...HOPE AND PRAY FOR THE BEST...
Kinda missing silat training...
Kinda having a VERY BIG APPETITE now adays...
consistently eating nonstop..in BIG portions...
and that's why it leads to my major weight increment..of
5 KILOGRAMS WITHIN 1 WEEK...
SO UnBELIEVABLE right...!!!!!!!
so heading to gym later..
yesterday was my last paper...
met with hairil for gym..
then accompanied him for dance...
while i recap my Seni Regu steps
then went headed back home...
